Paper Veins

Between ochre sunset and glittering mirror,
mother and child stand.
Between the two; an elephant, calm as the river
and warm under hand.

The water cleanses the three. Sand squelches under toes.
Small fingers caress the rough nose.
Later, its head and back are donned with rug and cap
of cardamom and indigo.

Plodding down the dusty road, feeling the strains
of the cracked earth beneath.
And all of this frozen within the paper veins
of the leathery leaf.

Forever is the elephant, now fragile and thin,
depicted in brush strokes on silvery skin.



She walks among the tombstones with an air of ease. If she knew I was watching, maybe it would not be so. The bleak graveyard accentuates the deep red of her dress and the rosy hue of her intoxicating presence. She’s been to a ball again.

I do not know if it is out of guilt or habit that she comes here tonight. She follows the familiar pathways back to me. To what’s left of me. She kneels in the dirt, cool wind playfully flicking her curls.

The pattering nuisance of the rain hammers harder, yet despite its efforts it soaks me not. My darling Portia is equally unperturbed. The rain bites at her porcelain skin. It flattens her hair to her flushed cheeks. It deepens the red folds of her gown into pools of fresh blood. No single tear mingles with the rainwater. If her body is far from me, her mind is further.

She lies a singular rose upon my earthen corpse and sits there, reminiscing. I look toward the house I once called my home. Lights engulf the outer porch and ballroom windows. Singing and merriment beckon from within. And yet my widow lies out here with me, allowing her foolish new husband to orchestrate this grand soiree without his sweet songbird.

I glide closer to her, hoping my ethereal senses will grant me just the smell of her perfume, the beat of her heart, the warmth of her chest. Not so. I want to feel the blood coursing through her veins. I want to feel her in my arms once again. Just once.

Once is enough.

She is too deep in thought to see me. I reach out to stroke her hair and she shivers uncontrollably. I put my arms around her, and her crimson lips turn purple. The heat is seeping out of her. I can almost feel it. So close! She tries to stand, but I won’t let her.

Finally, she sees me. She looks up with those wide hazel eyes and truly sees me. And her poor, frail, mortal heart ceases. She becomes as cold as me. I look upon her soft body one last time. Soon, my love. 

If Only

But what if?
If only.
Only once more…
More often than not.
Not a chance.
Chances are…
Are you certain?
Certainly not.
Nothing makes sense.
Sense doesn’t matter.
Matters are out of control.
Control is hard to keep under.
Underneath it all I’m not okay.
Okay? The answer is yes.
Yes is a lie.
Lies get us nowhere.
Nowhere? I want to be somewhere.
Somewhere with you, but I can’t.
Can’t do it. It’s impossible.
Impossible… but…
But what if?
If only.

Cinderfella Costume

Although it wasn’t used on the night, we made Cinderella’s work dress, and we were quite impressed with it!
Just call us Jaq and Gus!

– Approx 2 metres of dark brown.
– 1 metre of white cotton.
– 1 metre of light blue.
– 1 brown zip.


Approximate cost: £14

Dress measurements

– Chest
– Waist
– Length (Shoulder to Ankle)
– Hips
– Shoulder to armpit
– Shoulder to waist
– Waist to hips

Half all the width measurements and fold the material when cutting.



– Shoulder to wrist
– Width of top of arm
– Width of wrist

Apron Measurements

– Hips
– Hips to just above the ankles

Then cut a thin strip to attach to the front of the apron.


Bandana Measurements

– Ear to ear
– Hairline to back of head

Pretty straightforward. Again, you need a thin strip to make the bandana tie-able.


And here’s the finished product! Note: The fabulous model wearing it was not the intended wearer… but he still looks fabulous in it!



Elsa Costume

Again, we may have cheated a little on Elsa’s outfit… but it was totally worth it!


– Approx 2 metres of blue material.
– 2 metres of crappy but pretty and shimmery material (would not recommend, nightmare to sew).
– Light blue zip.
– Light blue corset


Approximate cost: £11 (With corset, £41)

We didn’t make templates for this outfit. We wrapped the skirt material around my flatmate, pinned it, hemmed it, put a slit in it and fitted it. The sleeves and cape were more awkward purely because of the material, but the end result was really worth it.


Who Is That Girl I See? Wait, That’s Not a Girl…

The next costume we made was Mulan’s Geisha outfit. Only it wasn’t any of the women that picked her out of the hat.

Is it ironic that a male friend of mine dressed up as the female Disney character who spends most of the movie pretending to be a man? Nah, I thought not.

This surprisingly was one of the easiest costumes we made. Because we may have cheated a little bit. Time was running out, so I bought a big pink cardigan off eBay and bought the other materials to wrap around it.

So here’s how you make your Drag Queen Mulan –

– Pink Cardigan.
– Approx 2 metres of white cotton.
– 1.5 metres of navy blue.
– A strip of red (left over from Aladdin’s belt).
– White zip.

Approximate cost (including delivery of cardigan) £13

Sorry about the quality of this pic!
Sorry about the quality of this pic!

So here he is, the Princess himself:


Megara Costume

This was my costume. When we pulled the names out of a hat I had to decide between Megara and Ariel. And here we are.

– Approx 2 metres of Lavender material.
– 1 metre of Plum material.
– 1 purple zip.
– 2 big brown buttons.


Approximate cost: £10 (With Gladiator sandals, £20)

Dress measurements:

– Length (Shoulder to ankle)
– Shoulder to boob
– Shoulder to armpit
– Chest
– Waist
– Hips


Please note: the template for the straps aren’t on here. I somehow managed to lose them.

Belts etc:
– Underboob
– Hips

The front part of the dress I found particularly difficult to do. Making the pleats and shaping it better to my body was easy, but making the top part of the dress look ruffled and less straight edged was infuriating. Nevertheless, here’s how it turned out:


And here’s me!